Friday, July 29, 2011

Fun Facts Friday

1. I love planning things to do, but sometimes don't follow through with them. Especially work-outs.

2. I'm becoming addicted to Netflix's instant queue. I sit on the couch, put a movie on my instant queue on the computer, and then it plays through the TiVo. Awesome!

3. I have a sad Garmin watch. I just realized its charger is still over on Grand Ave. "No worries. I'll bring it over tonight," was the text I rec'd yesterday morning. Hmm...still no charger.

4. I'm very proud of my sister, who will be running her very first half marathon this weekend. GO RU!

5. I'm starting to mentally pack up my house. Basement first, kitchen second, dining room third. Then I grind to a halt.

6. I have a tennis drill at 10:30 this morning. I should probably get going...

7. I have no dating prospects at the moment. This is weird for me, but I'm okay with it.

8. A friend asked me if I'm okay being alone. I've been thinking about this for a few weeks now and I've decided that I am. I enjoy company, but still spend most of my time alone.

9. I loved Friends With Benefits.

10. Asparagus is my favorite vegetable.

Have a great weekend! I'm off to tennis, lunch date with a PE teacher, and a massage. Not a bad way to spend a Friday. :)

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Wordless Wednesday...on Thursday

This past Tuesday into Wednesday I went here:

My friend Traci, an adapted PE teacher in Edina, has a cabin in Crowmwell, MN, about 2 hours north of the Twin Cities.

On Tuesday night we had some cocktails, some taco dip, and went for a cruise around Upper Island Lake on her pontoon boat.

The next day it was overcast, having rained hard all night. This made for some excellent 4-wheeling through puddles.

The trails were very scenic and were lined with wildflowers like these Black Eyed Susans.

I had a great time on my first 4-wheeled adventure, with Traci as my driver.

I hope to do much more cabin/lake/Minnesota stuff! What a great time!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Fun Facts Friday

1. Today would have been my 6th wedding anniversary.

2. I have lost 9.6 lbs since the breakup. Yay! -10 lbs and I can treat myself to a Monkey Sundae at Grand Ole Creamery.
3. The super cool lights over the tennis desk never stay on. This annoys me.
4. I’ve never played with two of the same racquet until this summer. It makes me feel like a “real” tennis player.
5. Everyone is getting into this lululemon athletica craze. I just can’t do it - $100 ($75 with my Lifetime discount) for a zip-up “define jacket”?!

6. I think I know about as much about relationships as I do about physics. But relationships are more fun to try and learn about than physics.
7. I started singing, “Lincoln, Lincoln I’ve been thinking, what the heck have you been drinkin’?” this week and my friend didn’t know what I was talking about.
8. I hate when people have tags sticking out of their shirts.
9. Even the word “tag” creeps me out. *shudder*
10. I don’t think I could date someone who wasn’t into sports at all.
11. I would much rather see a movie by myself than with someone else.
12. I like to sit in the same seat every time (class, movie, restaurant).
13. There’s a place in St. Paul that I like to visit. It’s my secret spot and I’ll never tell anyone where it is.
14. My current favorite beer brand is Lagunitas.

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Closure & Crazy Humidity

After contacting M three times, I finally received the last thing I was waiting for from him. It's bittersweet, but now everything is over. All ties have been severed and I can finally work on moving on. I was pretty upset today because, while the breakup hurt, him not talking to me about this hurt even worse. I think that, sometime way in the future, we could be friends. We did have a very good friendship. But for now, I just don't want it to be awkward if we see each other at Target or on Grand Ave. Things have ended well and I'm okay with it.

Today started the first day of Minnesota being as mucky as pea soup. It is 88 degrees, feeling like 106. And so I thought I'd take Amy up on her offer to play some tennis outside this afternoon! I went over to Kelly's to hang out in the backyard. There was a bit of a breeze an it didn't feel too bad. By the time 4 pm rolled around, the breeze had stopped. We puddled on the tennis court for about an hour until it started to rain. Then I headed back to Kelly's to cool off in the AC. The rain seemed to make things worse though.

So tonight I'm sitting on my couch, watching the boob tube, and I'm content. My heart's still broken, my knees are still sweating, but I can see that sometime, somewhere, I'll be excited about a boy again. And until that time, I'm going to do what I want to do and have a good time. Because "life is good." :)

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Three Things Thursday

1. Life is getting better. It's almost been a week since I was so rudely ditched and dismissed and I only cried once yesterday. I'm really digging my doubles tennis-relationships analogy. Sometimes you win and sometimes it's a struggle to win; sometimes it's easy. Sometimes you have a string of wins for five months and then you lose, badly. Ironically, this is what happened to me in both my romantic life and my tennis life. But I know that I will play another match and I'll win. And I have to have that same mindset when it comes to relationships. I'll win again, but in the meantime, I will practice and get better and be a better person. "And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous."

2. It's cold and rainy here today and I'm enjoying it. I've opened the windows and am liking the fact that I'm a tad chilly in the middle of July. I'm planning to run my mile later, rain or shine.

3. I've been having a hard time coming up with a third thing. Last night I met up with a friend who's going through a similar situation. We had a good time and we got each other to smile. We know we'll get through and that something better will come along, but we also know that it's going to be hard for awhile. But we have friends and that's priceless.

"Remember no man is a failure who has friends." - It's A Wonderful Life

This part always makes me cry.

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Wordy Wednesday

I've been having a tough day today after a good day yesterday. There was absolutely nothing I could have done to prevent this breakup because I was acting like myself. If I was too clingy, too present, there is nothing I could have done.

I've always loved this song:

Standing Outside the Fire

Here are the lyrics:

We call them cool
Those hearts that have no scars to show
The ones that never do let go
And risk it the tables being turned

We call them fools
Who have to dance within the flame
Who chance the sorrow and the shame
That always come with getting burned

But you got to be tough when consumed by desire
'Cause it's not enough just to stand outside the fire
We call them strong
Those who can face this world alone
Who seem to get by on their own
Those who will never take the fall

We call them weak
Who are unable to resist
The slightest chance love might exist
And for that forsake it all

They're so hell bent on giving, walking a wire
Convinced it's not living if you stand outside the fire

Standing outside the fire
Standing outside the fire
Life is not tried it is merely survived
If you're standing outside the fire

There's this love that is burning
Deep in my soul
Constantly yearning to get out of control
Wanting to fly hiher and higher
I can't abide standing outside the fire

Repeat Chorus(twice)

Tuesday, July 12, 2011


Yeah, I realized after I posted that today is only Tuesday. Le sigh.

Tennis wasn't so good - we lost 1-6, 0-6. I thought there was an interesting connection between doubles tennis and relationships. You can't do anything if the other person decides to return the serve to the opponent at the net. You have no control over the other person. You simply have to trust. And sometimes you win the match and sometimes you don't.

Wordless Wednesday

Monday, July 11, 2011


Today ended up being a good day. After being violated at my annual exam, I returned some stamps that M had purchased for me, got a pedicure that looks super cute!, picked up Ru's bday present, and then went to the chiropractor. And I only had about 10 crying breakdowns. Then I went over to my friend Jen's apt to swim in her pool, but of course it was closed today. Just my luck. So we decided to head out to Mac's Industrial, the bar we go to on kickball nights, a little early. It was still tough and I almost cried, but I managed to get some salad down. Since I just had my toes done, I did not play, but rather cheered everyone on at kickball. We lost, but it was close and fun game. I got a lot of hugs and it cheered me up to be with friends.

On the way home I cranked up the tunes and sang at the top of my lungs and I feel pretty good right now. I'm sure there are still tough days ahead, but I'll take this bout of okay-ness.

When I was picking up Ru's present, I found this sign and I've made it my Facebook profile pic. I like it.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Three Things Thursday

1. This morning I went to a 4.0 tennis drill. It was the pro, two other guys, and myself. I thought I could hang at a 4.0-level drill since I'm a 4.0 player, but I quickly realized that my back and my lungs are not ready for this level of play. At one point the pro even told me that once we can get me to breathe, I'll be pretty good! So I think I'll work on my mile and the elliptical to increase my cardiovascular fitness and go back to drilling at the 3.5+ level. 

2. On Tuesday I consumed 125.3g protein. On Wednesday I consumed 110.9g. How cool is that?

3. I'm really enjoying The Help. It's an engaging summer read and Wuthering Heights was killing my summer reading groove. The movie is coming out in August and it stars Emma Stone, one of my favorite new actresses. I have yet to see Jane Eyre and Water for Elephants and I'll probably have to catch them on Netflix. Other books that are on the docket for summer: American Brutus, My Year With Eleanor, Bossypants, Marriage Confidential, and At Home.
Emma Stone in The Help

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

West Side Wednesday

Today I ran a mile on the Henry Sibley track and took 14 seconds off of my mile time from yesterday. Oddly enough, the second time I ran the mile last July, I also took 14 seconds off my time. Tomorrow I'm going to do a tennis drill at Lifetime, but I may be able to sneak in a mile too...

After entering my food for the day, I was happy to see that, without even trying, I hit my first 30-30-40!! (And also learned how to take a screen shot, as witnessed from my actual screen shot.)
(Click to enlarge!)
I only added 44 calories of a delicious chocolate and toffee thing, ending the day at 31-29-40.

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Garage Sale Results and Other July Things

I made $99.25! Not too shabby for a bunch of stamps, scrapbooking stuff, and shoes. Missy and I are off to Elite Repeat on Thursday to see if any of our stuff is consign-able. Everything else is off to Goodwill or the recycling center. No one, NO ONE, is interested in tube TVs anymore, not even my small bedroom TV. Maybe I'll try posting on the free section of Craig's List before I hit the recycling center.

I had finally lost about 2 lbs in two weeks and then the 4th of July weekend hit. I was down in the dumps about waking up to gaining those 2 lbs back. Then I made the mistake of trying on dresses at White House|Black Market. I will NEVER go in there again. Everything was way too small and the girl picking out "suggestions" for me was obviously not grounded in the reality that is my body shape. Thanks for the horizontal stripes and frilly dresses...

So it's back to diet, exercise, and no beer. I may never see my -10 reward of a monkey sundae at the Grand Ole Creamery if I'm not perfectly strict. I've found some diet-friendly foods that I'm absolutely in love with though: the bacon, egg white, and cheddar muffin melt with avocado and spinach at Subway. I could eat this every morning for breakfast! Then there is the Balance bar. I've tried the almond brownie, which tastes like one of those Little Debbie brownies with nuts, and it's by far my favorite! I tried a lemon one today and it was pretty good too.

I'm trying to up my protein intake and reduce my carb intake and go by the 30-30-40 rule:

30% fats
30% proteins
40% carbohydrates

The Balance bars do just that. On My Food Diary it gives you the percentage of your diet that is fats, proteins, and carbs so I'm trying to get close to 30-30-40. As of breakfast and lunch today I'm at 35-26-40 so I'm close. My three main goals are increase protein and decrease overall calories while including three 32 oz Nalgenes per day. Last week when I lost 2 lbs, I did just that.

On the work front, I was denied unemployment since I pretty much have a job lined up for next year. So I've upped the amount of hours I'm working at Lifetime and The Depot. This weekend I worked a 7-hour shift at the water park and tomorrow I'm working 8 hours at Lifetime. Friday brings 8-noon at Lifetime followed immediately by a shift at the water park until 5. (Then I play a mixed doubles tennis match at 6:30.) Saturday I picked up another shift at the water park from 8:45-3:15. Phew! I'm hoping I'll make enough between those two jobs to help cover the cost of the security deposit on the new apartment. The water park is shut down for major cleaning after this weekend, but I upped my August request for hours.

I also started running a mile again this morning. I took it easy and ran it in 13:04, which is still better than when I started last July. On 7/18/10 I ran my first mile in forever in 13:24. I'm glad to see that I haven't regressed completely. I'm just sick of being back up in the 170s after losing close to 15 lbs last fall. My back injury and a depression-fueled eating and drinking binge for three months completely killed me, my motivation, my previous weight loss, and my confidence. I am planning on taking July to get all of that back.

Lastly, yesterday marked five months that Mike and I have been together. We spent the day hanging out with my friend Jodi and her friends at her mom's pool. It was really relaxing and we both got some exercise and some color and had a good time! I'm very happy with how things are and I feel so lucky to have found such a great OUTSTANDING!!!! man.

July Goals
1. Drink 3 Nalgenes per day.
2. Get mile time back down into the 11:00s (best time was 11:19 on 9/22/10).
3. Increase protein intake and consistently log in My Food Diary.
4. Decrease weight, even if it's only 1 lb in all of July!
5. Watch more movies (had to include one fun one!).